I really don’t see this as terribly rude at all, or even rude in any way. What you’re feeling is completely normal, and I would be lying if I said that I have never felt inferior to other writers or jealous of their talents.
I, too, thought publication was moons away from my reach. We’re not so different in those respects. I feel as though I will never be as good as some of my favorite poets- indeed, I look up to them as idols. I know I could never reach that level, and maybe I don’t want to, because it’s best to always be striving to reach higher.
So please don’t worry. These feelings you’re having are completely normal.
And if you’d like to come off anon, or if you can’t do that, ask me for my email address, then we can talk back and forth some more and I can tell you a bit more about publication.