For the 'wishing' person; if you want to write, then write. Don't wish, do. A famous pianist was told by someone that they wished they could play like he did. He said, no, you don't. If you did, you'd be taking lessons and doing something about it instead of wishing. I write about everyday and like you, I look back at my early stuff and say, jeez, I'm glad no one actually read that crap. Writers, write, always. Do, don't wish. If you want something bad enough, you'll find a way.

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