to crave physical contact as deeply as you love (endlessly), but to fear it just as much (if not more). i have too, harvested these feelings for as long as i can remember. for years i have tried to understand this about myself. this abnormality. this which makes me feel so alone. i cringe when someone touches me and distance myself from their warm embrace, yet, it's something i yearn for deeply. i know precisely your feelings. i am profoundly sorry for your self-worthlessness, too. i love you.

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